but I'm not sure what happened to them. Ok, so I'm still on my diet, but this is only my second week. It's too soon to tell if I'll really be able to stick with it. But I paid for 3 months of the Weight Watchers online service, so hopefully... And anyway, I like putting in the numbers.
My other one (and more important than losing weight) was to finish my book. Have I done anything about that? No.
My third one was to keep saving money so I can move out.
And I also want to do theater again, but I don't think that one was ever official. I think I just assumed that would happen on its own. But I had the chance to audition for a show this week and I didn't. The fact that I didn't really have a song ready is not a good enough excuse, because I SHOULD have had a song ready.
Graduating has not given me the satisfaction I thought it would. It was my focus, especially this final semester after my boyfriend and I broke up. Now, I feel like I have no focus.
I should have focus. I want to finish my book and send it out to agents, right? Yes, but once I do they might reject it. I've been trying to do this (get published) for awhile now and after submitting my first book, I thought I developed a thicker skin. I'm afraid now that this is not the case. This is my most original and best written (at least it will be after I edit it) book. If this doesn't get accepted, I don't know that anything I write ever will.
But I won't know until I try right? Can't live life without taking risks, without opening myself up for being hurt. That wouldn't be living. I have to remember that.
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